2 days ago I reached 80 days. Unfortunately 2 days before that my mum was admitted to hospital. And the whanau stayed by her side in ICU and camped out in the waiting lounge. I watched my whanau disappear outside for cigs all day all night. We had taken our own hot drink supplies to the hospital, so coffees were on most of the time. I declined most times because coffees were one of my triggers, which I had gotten over......but with the increased amount everyone was going thru I thought I better not push my luck. So I was doing well through our hard time with mum who was very very poorly (we nearly lost her) But 2 days after mum being admitted she started to improve. And my whanau made me go home for a proper rest because I hadn't left her side. I got home and the realization of what happen hit me like a ton of bricks. Being the eldest, mum had talked to me when we were alone telling me of her wishes for when she past. Everybody smoking around me, drinking coffees non-stop did not push me over the edge. The thought of losing my mum did. I was at home and had a big cry then reached past my partners cigarettes while he was sleeping reached into his draw I took out his vapor. And started puffing on it for a minute or 2. Told my partner the next morning what I did...got a growling even though he still smokes. I hate disappointing him & my smoking friends and whanau who had a lot of hope in me, Me lasting that long gave them hope in being able to quit soon...they've all been working them selves up to their quits. They liked how I never preached or tried to force them into not smoking like others have in the past...and totally put them off. I always say to them "Ma te wā " which means all in good time. I may of tripped up but I stood straight back up and dusted of my shoulder. Another new start.
I've never been much of a sweet tooth. Have always preferred savoury to sweet. But lately I've been getting the mean az sugar cravings. Did anybody else feel like that ??
I've always carried gum on me mainly for those māori moments at the marae when u kiss all the manuhiri or your whanau lol.
But now I'm chewing more sugar free extra gum to stem the nicotine cravings. And eating sugary things :(
My health can't afford to get a sugar addiction. I've kept my type 2 diabetes at bay nearly reversed it.
Gee I wish my lungs and my stomach would listen to the brain and not crave that crap.
Inhale ........exhale..... 4 D's
ok I'm good lol
Kia pai to rā
Had a bit of an incident while at the hospital ( for mums check up) of a man (30ish) yelling at his elderly parents that had come to pick him up. The verbal abuse he was dishing out to his parents, man I just wanted to knock him out. But my mum held my hand...because she knew what I would do. Anyway we were driving away, and I was taking some big mighty breaths....trying to calm down. And a thought came into my head...I need a smoke.
Then I got angrier with myself for being weak and thinking like that.
My whole journey has been making my mind strong, retraining my brain. And there was a little glitch in the system today but it didn't break me......came close, but it didn't win.
I'm 63 days smokefree today.
In my blogs it might seem easy for me, but it ain't.
Just that I focus more on the positive things in life.
Kia kaha koutou
Smokefree days: 57
Total savings: $456
Been out and about on this crappy Auckland day. Just seen some employees at the back of the shops having a smoko break. The wind blowing and its about to rain. Oh how I don't miss those situations lol.
Still got my feel good pants on hahaha. Hope everyone is fine.
Kia pai to ra :)
Kia ora everyone..It's my 50th smoke free day !!! I'm stoked as.
Have been through all my triggers and faced them all head on.
The after kai, during coffee, while driving, the hard one ...while socializing and the final one for me last week, during an emotional time.
Had my only child,my son leave the nest to move to Perth.
Even though I was moping around for 2 days after, still didn't want to take up smoking.
Positive vibing this kaupapa all the way boiiiii .
On some real good vibes cos my league team is winning too..hehehe :)
Up my mighty Warriors
Kia pai to ra :)
Better Living <3
Kia ora everyone.
40 days auahi kore and still going strong.
Big whanau function on the weekend.
And I survived the big kai and drinking situation.
Kept up beat too, only positive vibes from this gurl :)
Last thing I want my whanau to see is someone moping around sad as because of their quit.
I make them want to join my waka :)
I spent most of my night getting pulled aside by individual whanau members asking me all kinds of questions about my quit.
Haere mai whanau .....we can do this together.
Kia kaha koutou
Better living <3
I went to join my friends last night, play darts, watch league.
When I walked into the room I got the " ooo gurl you smell nice, what you got on ?"
Me - " It's called smoke free " ;) 😊 hehehe
32 days auahi kore and loving life
Kia ora everyone :)
Reaching my little milestones....30 days smokefree, yeahhh boiii.
My partner was asked by our friends...is the sis grumpy, has she been getting bit@#y ?
His reply was no, she's actually smiling more than she use to and she's really happy.
I didn't realize this until he told me of his convo with the mates. I suppose I am.......I'm just feeling more positive these days. Every smoke free day I fist pump and go yeahhh boii
another day of living without that poison. I walk around exuding smoke freeness (apologies for my freshness lol) that mates are starting to ask more and more questions about getting on my waka. Being smoke free.
I'm still working on myself but it's getting easier and easier because I want and need this so much.
Better living all <3
Kia ora everyone.
I'm 24 days smokefree. And had my first night out with friends.
I survived all night amongst the smokers. Even though most of them respectfully tried to smoke away from me. I was all good, felt strong as...and positive all night.
Everyone was glad to see me back and doing well. I had a couple of guys say " sis if you make it to 6 months...I'll give up" A few of them have started on vapes and are happy at the stages they are at. My friends are all seriously thinking of quitting or cutting down to vapes. And totally support me in my journey.
And when they are ready to jump on this waka...I will be there to support them too.