Smokefree days: 329
Total savings: $7,073
Just a quick hello to you all- I'm not around much anymore, I miss the old site and I haven't figured this one out yet. I'm still smokefree and given the struggles I faced for years trying to quit it's amazing to realise I now hardly ever think about smoking. My goal of one year smokefree which I have never achieved before and once seemed impossible is now just one month away. I will be celebrating with my partner who is also still smokefree. We are also happily expecting another baby after having our little girl last year.
I am pleased to see everyone is doing well and congratulations to Blondene on your 900 days. Also a big hello to nanaturtle- one of my biggest most kindest supporters- thank you for all that you do for everyone here.
Keep strong everyone- one day at a time.
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 3860
Total savings: $4,149.50
Hey quit fam,
Positive thinking day 2 and it is working out well. Actually since I got it all out and made a plan I feel a lot better. Feeling more optimistic about starting work on Monday. I am organised and as I have been easing baby into daycare for two months I know I can leave her for the day and she will be ok. Usually I leave her for three hours at a time. Now it will be 5.5 hours. But I'm sure she will know I'm coming back. Will be too busy playing to miss me a lot I hope.
I have done better today at cutting down on the overeating and crap food and have been drinking a lot of water instead. Which hasn't been too hard I will just do it gradually instead of trying to put myself on a strict diet straight away. Also went for a big walk today which was hard to get motivated for but as soon as I was out the door I was fine and actually really enjoyed it. Took all the kids the pre-teen protested but the other kids loved it.
Also went shopping this afternoon which always makes me feel better about life. Left the children at home with dad and off I went. As I am going back to work and I make ok money I do not feel bad AT ALL about shopping. It is good for the soul. My soul. Shopping makes me happy.
Hope everyone has had a great day remember no puffin' muffins 🚭🚭🚭
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 3660
Total savings: $3,934.50
Hey quit fam,
I'm not around often but I normally pop in every few days to see how everyone's doing. I still really enjoy reading the blogs and following your smokefree journeys. When I started my own journey, I felt desperate, alone and hopeless, convinced I'd never be able to quit smoking. I tried so many times and failed, trapped in a vicious cycle of quitting, relapsing, then the anxious build up to quitting again just to fail again. I justified smoking to myself, my partner, friends and family - I suffer from bipolar disorder and severe anxiety and I had to smoke just to cope with life. I justified it even when we couldn't afford things for our four young children because our spare money went on buying cigarettes.
I thought I had started out on yet another short and fruitless journey. I didn't expect to make it past the first day. But I did. And then the second and third day. And with the support of my quit family here, who listened and offered words of kindness and encouragement without judgement, I have made it to 6 months smokefree.
My mental health hasn't improved much. I have recently come out of a short bout of mania and received an additional diagnosis of obsessive compulsive disorder. But despite things not being great on the mental front, I feel like I have regained some control over my life. Now my quitting is about staying smokefree. It is a heck of a lot easier than when I started. I stay on guard and employ my distraction tools if I have a rare craving or thoughts of smoking. Even when I get really stressed (like, a lot of the time) I can now cope without thinking that I need a cigarette. I'm still amazed. But I feel like I am finally free and it is a great feeling.
For those who are starting out, know that it does get easier. It really does. And even those most horrible, awful moments or days are absolutely worth it. To those who were with me when I started, I can't name you all and some of you aren't here or are quietly lurking, you can't know, truly, how your kindness and support changed everything for me. You just can't know. You believed in me. I didnt believe in me, but you did, and it's taken time but now I do too. Quitting smoking is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do but I have had the weight of this wonderful community behind me and it has made all the difference.
PS I was right (I can only say it here!) Other half relapsed after having 'the odd smoke' for a few months but I bought him a vape now he is happily back on track 😊
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 2780
Total savings: $2,988.50
Hey quit fam,
Day 140 nearly five months and as mental as ever but I am still completely clean. There are days the thought of smoking or an old memory pops into my head but I can't remember the last time I actually had a craving for a cigarette. My partner has been having the odd cigarette (he says) I found out recently and we nearly killed each other arguing over it as he's convinced that he can have the odd smoke without getting sucked back in so I won't even go there because he won't listen to me and it's not worth the arguments.
I am nearly halfway to my goal of one year. I have quit more than a dozen times but have never made it to a year before. If I am still smokefree after what my bipolar has done to me over the last year then I'm sure I can handle whatever is coming this year. My youngest now 9 months old is very clingy and won't sleep at the moment which I'm finding really hard and lack of sleep isn't good for my mood. But I have had lots of practice finding different ways to cope so now the thought of smoking to cope with life seems ridiculous and foreign to me.
For those struggling to cope or wondering how you will deal with stress without smoking, it is absolutely possible. Sometimes dealing with emotions and stressful situations head on instead of running away to have a cigarette is better overall. I had the perfect excuse to smoke for as long as I wanted to- I have a mental illness that has never let me live in peace for any extended period of time and there's no cure. I'll have it for life. Everyday life upsets me and I'm so highly strung and anxious it's almost funny. I was in despair, desperate to be rid of this awful addiction but believing I needed to smoke to cope with my life and deal with my illness. I'm still very cautious, but now I have hope, I believe that I can beat this addiction while struggling with my bipolar and trying to keep up with everything in our busy lives. Financially we are so much better off but the biggest benefit for me is finally feeling free. I might be mental, but it doesn't mean I can't achieve my goals, or be a good mother, or keep my job that I worked my damn backside off for by the way, or beat a horrid addiction that has plagued me for years.
Well done to everyone just for being here. No matter the stage of your journey whether day 1 or day 1001 quitting is hard and staying quit still requires energy and strength. Smoking is an awful addiction and to beat it we will have to work hard and be on guard possibly for a very long time after we stubbed out our last cigarettes. But, personally I think it's worth it, to be free.
Keep up the great work everyone
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 2000
Total savings: $2,150.00
Now that I'm here I can't think of anything to say! I am no good at speeches 😶
Other than when I read back through my journey I can't help but notice how absolutely mental I sounded most days and you guys supported me, listened to me, cheered me on and never judged me so today just know my success is part mine, part yours. My stupid illness can make me feel really lonely. It's funny, I haven't felt lonely for the past 100 days.
Now it's time for mad dancing! And cocktails!
Special thank you to gaga, Sfm, nanaT, nana22, blondene, bub... wait, are all you guys ladies? So you know how you are awesome, and seem to just get that underneath my mentalness I am also awesome, and you happen to be ladies (?) Is that an accident? LOL no offence to the gentlemen I think men are great also 😂 (((kashi))) my special quit buddy. OK enough rambling party time 🍹🍻🎉
Oh- just one more thing:
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 1960
Total savings: $2,107.00
I'm sorry I haven't been on the past few days (must be a record 😂) I feel like I've missed out on a lot 😭😭😭
It's all happening at once, I started reacting to my patches a few weeks ago which has never happened before and I've used them a lot in the past with no problems and everything was fine until BAM massive reaction- swelling blistering bleeding the works. So no worries, I've been smokefree nearly 100 days (hope someone's prepping the nibbles) so I just stopped using them. Was fine until a few days ago and I lost it. Rang quitline this morning and got a really lovely lady who put up with my barely coherent sounds-like-day3-b**chfit and helped me come up with a plan to try the lowest dose patches and see if I can tolerate those.
Doesn't help that I think my bipolar is playing up something wicked and I'm tearing through about five moods per day at the moment. I don't know what's setting me off and I know I need to go to the doctor but I don't know what to tell him without sounding like I need to be put in a white room with foam walls. I don't want to lose it and end up smoking so it's back to one day at a time and apologising to everyone for my mood swings and outbursts my poor partner probably thought he'd seen the worst of it- SURPRISE!! 😂😂😂
I'll try catch up on all your posts a bit later I hope everyone has been doing well been thinking about you all 💕💕💕
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 1800
Total savings: $1,935.00
🎉🌟10 days until hundy club!!!🌟🎉
Slowly getting there! I have to log in to see what day I'm up to otherwise I lose track which I think of as an achievement. Too many smokefree days to count! Me! 😂😂😂
I have moments where I almost can't be bothered dealing with smoking thoughts or random cravings and I think it would be much easier to just have a damn cigarette. But I am taking the same approach that I do with my silly bipolar. I accept I have bipolar (addiction). I don't like the medication and its side effects (cravings) but know I must take it each day (fight each craving) to stay well (smokefree). It is hard work and I wish I didn't have it (both bipolar and the damn addiction!) but I do. End of. 😭😀🚭
And I never thought I'd say it, but we have money. We're on one income and we have four children between us, for whom we are financially responsible, are debt free, all bills paid up, have the start of a healthy savings account and that's with a stay at home sometimes manic mother who likes to go shopping (and has trained the baby very well to also like shopping). We used to struggle on two incomes when I was working. But we save about $250 a week not buying cigarettes for the both of us. It's crazy. But such a good feeling now to go out for dinner whenever we like. Money for all the little extras. So these silly smoking thoughts and random cravings can kiss my well pampered backside 😚😚😚
Just so excited for hundy club day *bouncing up and down* in case I forgot to mention it's in 10 days!!!
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 1700
Total savings: $1,827.50
15 days until hundy club!!
Have had a few bad days this week but trying to keep myself busy and productive. Which is easy as I have a wedding to plan! 😄😄😄
Because as everybody knows I am slightly mental 😂 I have gone ahead and got a wedding planner- best decision I ever made (after quitting smoking of course 😊) and I felt a million times better the second I got him. Everything will be taken care of- which leaves me plenty of time for dress shopping! So much fun 😊
We have already put $600 into savings this fortnight to go towards the wedding and bought a new 7 seater car last week. We have needed a second car for three years but could never afford to buy one. We finally saved enough with all our smoking money and we were so proud. We made excuses to drive places in it the first day we got it ☺
On the smoking front: I casually observed that even on my bad days my smoking thoughts and cravings are no more than I would experience on a normal day. Which is great news as I think that means not smoking is normal for me now and even when things are hard I'm not turning to wanting to smoke to get through it. I'm still very much on guard though, as most of my slips have been when things have got rough and I haven't been coping.
On a normal day I will have my coffee on the couch and read through the blogs and the thought will usually pop into my head that I used to always have a smoke with my coffee. I'll have the same thought after doing housework or when arriving home from an outing. They're always just thoughts then I will have the odd craving which doesn't last long and is relatively easy to ignore. If I have a few random cravings in one day I might pull out the gum for back up or make myself busy and know that on that day I need to be super on guard.
So feeling happy that I'm at this point, I need to focus on working to stay smokefree and alert- I know from past relapses that one day I'm doing fine and the next I'm smoking for some stupid reason. In the grand scheme of things it's pretty good to be feeling this good not smoking after 85 days. I thought I'd feel horrible forever but it got better!
Thank you guys for always listening and for your support. And to nanaturtle for making sure I'm not 'unraveling'- like I could on your watch 😂
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 1540
Total savings: $1,655.50
Hello fellow quitters ☺
Randomly had a few cravings today I'm not even sure why! Still tired because baby not sleeping and felt a bit meh today so that's possibly why. Nothing major, just annoying as I've been feeling great on the smoking front lately.
Got myself busy, did a bit of cleaning (my favourite!) Then put baby in the buggy and put son on his scooter and took them off for a big walk down by the river. It was a great idea except I'm so unfit! Trying to keep up with a five year old whizzing along on his scooter nearly killed me. Made a mental note to walk a bit more regularly than I do currently. Which should be easy as I do ZERO walking or exercise currently 😂😂
Praying that baby will sleep tonight... gave her a nice warm bath rubbed her with lavender, fed her a big dinner plus her milk, surely that should mean a big sleep? Fingers crossed 😴
So proud of all the new quitters for all the hard work you guys are putting into your quits, the early days are definitely the toughest and you're doing amazing keep at it!
Have a great smokefree night everyone I'm off to get some sleep in case baby decides to get up at 2am again! 😴😴😴
PS- 23 days till hundy club!!! 😊