By MelFeeling anxious about my decision but I know it's what's best for me and my kids. I grew up seeing my mum smoke and then my sister and now I do it- I don't want my kids to think smoking is part of growing up. My partner doesn't smoke he hates the smell of it he hates the way I look when I'm smoking he doesn't appreciate me smoking around our kids and I agree with him on all of these things. He also doesn't want to see me die from something caused by smoking. He had to watch his grandmother die of emphysema, my grandfather also died from it. I just want the absolute best for my family and I know this means I have to kick smoking to the curb! This is day one of the rest of our lives. My family is my motivation and I will succeed!