Gosh that last post of mine was unpleasant. I wasn't in a good headspace at all yesterday. Feeling much more positive today.

Listening to the wind howl I'm glad I voted yesterday. I've always liked voting on the day, but I'll happily stay inside today.

Time for some reflection.

Two weeks ago today I woke up for my first smoke-free day. I didn't start blogging here unti 2 days later, but my first post http://www.quit.org.nz/blog/view/post/59823/ was a recap and said "Saturday was rough. Every time I walked by the back door I wanted to step out and light up [...]. I think if I'd had any I would have lit up. I refused to leave the house. Several times I felt desperate for a smoke. I ended up hitting the sweets, biscuits, nuts, and almonds pretty hard."

Looking back at those rather bleak words I can feel how far I've come, and also see I've still got a long way to go. I'm still munching on nuts, almonds and chocolate biscuits; but not nearly as much. I'm still not terribly keen on social outings, but aren't actively avoiding them.

There's still not a huge amount of active joy in my life, but not as much sorrow either. To an extent my emotions are wound back. It's improving gradually though.

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    AXL said:
    20 September 2014

    Well done on 2 weeks Bruce!

    I haven't been socializing a lot lately either. But hey, at least we're smokefree.

    You're going great mate. Keep it up.

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    Nana22 said:
    20 September 2014

    Congratulations Bruce, 2 weeks is a great achievement. I don't think your blog yesterday was unpleasant in the slightest. I thought it was very real. We could all just be sweetness and light on here but i don't think that would be very honest, and i do so admire honesty. We need to keep it real, so when we look back on our old blogs, we can see a true picture of how far we've come. Warts an all. Some days are manky old rocks an it's okay to share that as well as share the good things.

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    lemony snickets said:
    21 September 2014

    2 weeks Bruce. Great work. So you had a bad day, meh! that was yesterday, it's a whole new day today :)

    When you think about it, it's a whole heap easier giving up smoking than dying from lung disease :)