I thought I was doing so well for the last few days until lunch today. We had an irregular gettogether at Sals Pizza for people I used to work with.

Sitting outside after finishing eating I suddenly desperately wanted a fag. I have no idea where it came from or why it was so strong.

If I'd had access to them at that point I would have lit up. I did resist walking up the road and buying some, but only just. I was already on my feet when the party broke up.

Right now I feel one hell of a lot less cocky than I have recently.

"Pride costs more than hunger, thirst and cold." - Thomas Jefferson

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    AXL said:
    17 September 2014

    Hey Bruce, at least you didn't give in to temptation. Keep it up mate. You're doing well.

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    Cheekyhua said:
    17 September 2014

    I agree with Axl, you didn't give In on this one so congrats with that :)

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    Julia C said:
    17 September 2014

    Thanks. You're right that I didn't light up. The trouble is that in my mind I did give in. If I'd had a cigarette or been able to get one then and there I would have lit up.

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    Julia C said:
    17 September 2014

    I've slightly edited the post for clarity on the above points.

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    Genzo said:
    17 September 2014

    that is why ODAAT is a very true mantra....sometime you have to fight even minute for minute, especially at the beninning of your trip...stay strong, smoke doesn t helps at all...

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    not4life said:
    17 September 2014

    Yes, at least you didnt give in. Whew for that one! Dont beat yourself up but stay on your guard. We are only human, perfect in our imperfections. Stay strong & stay smokefree.

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    SusyQ said:
    17 September 2014

    Nice work Bruce. When those cravings catch you unawares, they can hurt like hell. You got through it though, so be kind to yourself. You did really good!

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    Tarns49 said:
    17 September 2014

    The pride is yours Bruce, you never fell!

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    Calmwaters said:
    17 September 2014

    Proud of you, well done for being stronger than your addiction!

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    fagoff said:
    17 September 2014

    Well done m8. that was a great victory, the fact is if you really wanted to give in nothing would have stopped you having one. This is a very humbling process eh that's what I have been experiencing too. It doesn't feel good but it is a good thing. Humility is one of the greatest characteristics one can have .

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    Julia C said:
    17 September 2014

    Thanks all.



    Like many people here I both want and don't want to smoke. It's a bizarre conflict between the desire for immediate gratification and the desire for longer term health. Today I frightened myself when I looked into my own weaknesses.

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    Greeneyeddragon said:
    18 September 2014

    theres strength in humility Bruce. We are all weak at times in the face of addiction. Kudos to you and your humble warrior spirit for not submitting to the demon

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    Saffron said:
    18 September 2014

    Be proud of yourself for finding the strength to resist, Bruce. It'll be there inside you should you need it again :)