Didn't sleep too well last night. Went to bed early & woke up a little before 2 AM with a full bladder. Couldn't settle & didn't get back to sleep until after 3:30 AM. I've heard this can be a side effect of Champix, but think it was more stress related. Time will tell. When the alarm went I really wanted more sleep, but work summoned.

Before I started this programme I tried to work out where my big risks were. Work is one of the big ones. I knew I needed to give up late on Friday so I could have two full days smoke-free before work. Even so, I have a fairly intense and mentally demanding job so I saw my first smoke-free working day as a huge risk.

It was weird. I seem to have already adjusted to not stepping outside for that first smoke of the day; but when I left home for the bike ride to work I instinctively patted my jacket pockets for my ciggies. (Yes, I used to smoke while riding my push-bike. If you work in the Parnell, Newmarket ares you may have just sussed who I am).

Starting the work day without a quick puff just before going in wasn't too bad. I've deliberately decided not to tell anyone without a "need to know" about my giving up. My workmates don't need to know. If they notice they notice, but I'm not bringing the matter up. A couple of times during the day when I would have taken a quick smoke break wasn't too bad either. I just reminded myself I wasn't smoking. I actually went to my designated smoking area for a minute or so ... mainly to get out of the airconditioning & computer whirr.

Lunch time was tough. I went to a nearby lunch-bar for a sandwich and chips. I chose this lunch bar today *because* I knew that I wouldn't walk past a place that sells cigarettes. On the way back, eating lunch as I walked I started thinking about the closest places that sell cigarettes. I ended up deciding that the closest one required walking past work ... so as soon as I got to work I raced inside and started back into work a little earlier than scheduled.

If I can play mind games to try and trick myself into visiting tobacco pushers, I can certainly play mind games to stop myself.

This afternoon was also tough. Mostly because the work I was doing required only very small amounts of action by me and large amounts of waiting for the computer to install new software. Time I could spend thinking about you-know-what.

I was reasonably well in control, and didn't get back to mentally triangulating tobacco pushers.

Riding home was tough. Tough, tough, tough. I was physically shaking, almost begging myself to stop at the Mobil station and buy a packet. A little voice was saying "Just smoke one & throw the rest of the pack away". No, I was strong, I resisted.

Then I went to my local dairy for a loaf of bread. The lady there asked if I wanted any ciggies. She's the first I've told I'm giving up, she wished me luck. I ended up buying a packet of chilli peas, to give an alternate to the sugar snacks and nuts.

For about the first hour I was munching & wanting that cigarette. It's abated now. I know I shouldn't let myself substitute junk-food for the ciggies; but right now I'm adding "long term" to that.

It's 7PM & I'm feeling pretty good.

3 days clean!

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    Bicycle said:
    08 September 2014

    Do you use patches ? It helps !

    Keep going ! I am a cyclist, my husband cyclist too (ok, we do mountain more than road, but we still do road if there is an opportunity). My husband already quit over 1000 days ! His sister quit over 1300 days (after heavily smoked for 50 years !) If they can, you can too !

    Use patches and lozenges ! I find they helps especially the first few weeks.

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    Julia C said:
    08 September 2014

    I'm on Champix. As I understand it, it block the nicotine receptors in the brain and you shouldn't mix it with nicotine replacements such as patches.



    I've been smoking since 1976 & smoke free since Saturday. Too long & too sort respectively.

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    Bicycle said:
    08 September 2014

    PS, just a "trick" that I used : get a Vicks Inhaler and put it in your pocket. If you happened to "look" for ciggy while riding, "smoke" that instead. :)

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    Julia C said:
    08 September 2014

    Thanks. Should get myself one before I start to look like the Michelin Man.

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    aimee7 said:
    08 September 2014

    Really enjoyed reading this blog. Well done on 3 days :)

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    Julia C said:
    08 September 2014

    Thanks aimee7

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    nuks said:
    08 September 2014

    Those extra hot peppermints work also. suck them slowly

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    Marni said:
    08 September 2014

    Hey Bruce - if you're on Champix, there is no pressure or timeline to quit cigarettes, you're on day 3 but you have a lot more time. Just keep taking the pills and smoking. I was astounded as to the result Champix made. It will happen. Hang in there.

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    sunray said:
    08 September 2014

    Great going Bruce ..and congrats on your 3 days smokefree ..Keep on rocking, you are doing awesome. ⭐

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    Julia C said:
    08 September 2014

    Thanks Marni. I thought of that, but I want to be off the smoking & now that I've been through 3 days, I really want to stay off.

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    cryuff said:
    08 September 2014

    Cool post. You're doing good.

    Nice one.

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    Mamas6pack said:
    09 September 2014

    Thank you for sharing your many achievements, even though you struggled, at the end of it you added another day to being smoke free. Today is to be my first which I am going into with trepidation, your blog is inspirational and I shall remember your struggles but even more, you resilience. Thank you.

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    Nana22 said:
    09 September 2014

    Good on you Bruce. The more you can change your thinking the better. You did real well as those first few days can be so hard and you did not smoke! The deep slow breathing really helps when it's tough going and nobody knows you're doing it. Keep up that great work.