Smokefree days: 47 days
Cigarettes NOT smoked: 470
Total savings: $441.60

Doing okay....just been unwell with the 'flu which has attacked me quite severely this winter first-up; this is the first year I didn't get a 'flu shot so go figure. I can only imagine how rotten I would feel if I were still smoking....I shudder to think, I really do.

Well just a quick note to say hello and it's back to my sick-bed for me to try to get warm again.

I hope all my family are strong and well.



Rob
Dunedin

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    Pop's said:
    22 July 2013

    Hello Rob. Arrived back from Christchurch on Friday with a bad cold. Today, still a bit blue. 2 Grandkids here today & they know Pop's is not his usual self.



    I did get to read your recent Blogs. Apart from your cold, you are doing very well. Very pleased for you. You really have made an impression with the quit community. You have had some serious concerns & you have handled them all with great courage & determination. You have emerged much stronger & you have won.

    Looking forward to future Blogs from you. You have gained huge respect from us. It can only continue. Well done on your near 50 days.

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    Yorkshire Lass said:
    22 July 2013

    I had the flu a few weeks ago Rob, and like you, I knew it would have been way worse if I had still been smoking. Even with chest infections I would still smoke....Look back now and cringe even thinking about it. Take it easy, get plenty of rest. And goes without saying..your stats are looking great.

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    Worker said:
    22 July 2013

    Hi Rob - ive got the flu too. And this is the first year ive had the flu injection. I think mine has gone to bronchitis but usually ive had at least two good bouts by now so that's something to be grateful for I suppose. Well done with your stats Rob and take care.

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    Janet G said:
    22 July 2013

    Hi Rob... Your stats are fantastic! Good on you! And yes, it would be just awful to have to go outside to smoke and make yourself sicker!

    I'm really glad you are a non-smoker now :)

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    Dingdee said:
    22 July 2013

    How are you doing with your feelings and stresses abt your daughter going away ? Sorry, just been wondering how u are .

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    PandoraNZ said:
    23 July 2013

    I've been having flu jabs for some years and apart from one rather nasty reaction - no flu. I have had repeated chest infections and the last one last year nearly saw me in hospital - like you, I shudder to think of going through that again. Look after yourself really well, lots of fluids and keep warm. The stats are great, congratulations

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    TigerTree said:
    23 July 2013

    Stay well, flu goes past much easier and quicker as to when you smoked, trust me I know :-)

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    Saffron said:
    23 July 2013

    Sending extra-strength recovery vibes your way, Rob.

    Thanks for posting - I was wondering how you were.

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    RobertRich said:
    23 July 2013

    Dingdee I am stressing somewhat......trying to come to terms with my feelings about my partner and especially my daughter going away....they are now going next month, not October, so I am trying not to think about it but it's not really working. Being sick doesn't help and I will blog a bit more coherently when I am well again.....thankyou for asking - that means a lot to me :)

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    Dingdee said:
    23 July 2013

    How long will they be away for robs ? From one of your earlier blogs you inferred that they do this often ? Every year , I think u said ... So if you don't mind me trying to place all this , but do they have to go ? I mean only to suggest that your partner's absence seems to cause you such pain , understandable I guess . But now??? .... When you hv lost so much ?

    Sigh ... I don't know .... I am sure she has a good reason but hoping that it's a super duper good reason , that's all .

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    RobertRich said:
    25 July 2013

    Hey there Dingdee.....I don't mind you asking me anything :) I guess that I am a little stuck for words right now.....still feeling quite sick and sore.....but my partner and daughter go annually to Thailand. They don't HAVE to go, no....in some ways I am scratching my head about this year due to circumstances I have had to face but I don't stand in the way. There's no super-duper reason I'm sorry....more for myself than anything. I do wonder why I put myself through this.....and some other aspects of my life but perhaps that is a blog in itself, if I can brave it enough to peel another couple of layers off this onion of mine. Thankyou for wanting to make some sense of things Dingdee....I'm not convinced I have helped but in some ways that's a statement of my depression at the moment, in not caring about myself enough to stand up for myself in matters of the heart....in that sense, I am still hurting a great deal....can't seem to shake it as yet.

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    RobertRich said:
    25 July 2013

    Dingdee they will be away between 6-8 weeks.....seems like an eternity I can assure you....

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    Dingdee said:
    26 July 2013

    K.... Just wrote all my feelings and thoughts and it didn't post it . No clues why. Had no naughty any things, didn't even say the s-word. . seems fake for me to say it again ...and I am finger typing on my phone , which is always full of epic autocorrects, so best I quit now ...

    But will say I am thinking of you heaps during this time and hope you get better quickly . Whew , no errors in all that . :-)

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    RobertRich said:
    26 July 2013

    Thankyou Dingdee.....*warm hug*

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    Dingdee said:
    27 July 2013

    One finger typing , so please bare with me robs . ... The awesomeness in this grey fog is you. You battled soooo much in the beginning and look at you now ...:-) I had a glance ( well , okay , I read ..) your previous blogs and it's so notable how you have changed from the person who couldn't quit to the warm , sensible person you are today . Yes , nonsense has happened , tragedy has torn you and this event to come , however long it may be, will continue to stretch your capacity for pain . But know what ?? You are still nicer than then , you are still beating this , life has not whipped your rear end Robs, you can be okay with the person you are now , post trauma. I remember when my boyfriend at school was killed in an accident , being so young and passionately in love , as 16yr olds are, I struggled hugely with guilt ..... It came again when recently a friend was relaying how they attended the service of a nz soldier killed abroad .... The same guilt . I realised what it was though , being older ( in a good way ) and settled much of my angst by allowing myself to be okay with being the one that didn't die .... I wasn't nearly as awesome as those that did , but it was ok that way .... I was enough to be here .... You are more than enough Robster .

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    RobertRich said:
    27 July 2013

    Wow Dingdee....thankyou *hug* I don't feel like enough at the moment.....so your words come as a tonic in my rattled little world....I don't know what else to say than 'thankyou' for being you with me; it's an honour to do battle with you, and to know your warmth a little as I do....

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    Dingdee said:
    27 July 2013

    Xx

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    RobertRich said:
    28 July 2013

    XXX

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    Dingdee said:
    29 July 2013

    Seems silly to keep adding to this thread but also seems convenient too so shall .... :-) just checking in to see how u are .. Stats are looking great .. An off the topic question .... Why the RICH part in your name ? I can't imagine it's got anything to do with your financial status as you don't seem to be the sort that is bothered by any of that which would usually define someone ....so why that then ? I'll tell u mine if you ... :-) Can't remember which of the oldies it was but someone asked all to post abt their names ...was so interesting , and funny too . I'll squizz and see if I can find it again .

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    RobertRich said:
    29 July 2013

    Hey Dingdee....nothing too deep I'm afraid about my name :) It is short for Richards.....you are right, it's not about riches and the like, none of which interests me too much I must echo....it's my surname......and so what is your story? :) I wait very interested....

    It does seem odd to still be posting here on this thread but I found myself drifting back to it in case I had heard something from you and I was rewarded :) You have come to mean a lot to me......just thought I would say :)

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    Dingdee said:
    29 July 2013

    :-) the thread ... Yes, oddly so . :-)

    My name comes from a few years back when I was trying to get out of teaching after winning a design award . I started a brand called "dingbat designs" and so the nickname dingdee seemed to ring true I guess .... Nothing too interesting :-) just dingbatti

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    Dingdee said:
    29 July 2013

    Urgh , stupid fat finger ( not really, I actually have the hiccups and accidentally hiccuped posted mid typing)

    So sorry , ( blush) ws busy saying how dingbat-ish I was ...... Apt .

    Oh dear .... Hiccups galore . .... Lol

    ( holding breath now , that's what my granny used to say worked , not that it ever has ...)

    Hmm, I think I might 've gotten the best of th

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    Dingdee said:
    29 July 2013

    Dammit! LOLLOL

    Ok, I best stop .... I am beginning to laugh at myself too and the combo of hiccups , texting and giggles is definitely a perfect breeding ground for embarrassing autocorrect .

    Have you ever wondered if your other followers still read this thread ?

    Oh gosh ! More hics and cups ....

    LOLLOL



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    RobertRich said:
    30 July 2013

    Oh my.....you sure are having a time of it between giggles, autocorrect and hiccups :) Nice to know where your name came from....was wondering also. I do wonder sometimes if anyone still checks in to old threads....and if anyone is keeping a watching brief on this one. Anyways, no matter, what's important to me is that you did :) Dingdee :)

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    jiffa said:
    30 July 2013

    Keeping an eye on you RobertRich,Hope you are getting over that Flu Bug.I Wished I had your Strength, you have been through so much and still find time to keep in touch on the Blog Page, Sadly I Fell off the Train and am back having a few puffs but will try again, Thoughts with you all.

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    Dingdee said:
    30 July 2013

    Ahh.... There we go . Hmm.

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    RobertRich said:
    31 July 2013

    Yes......but it shall not stop us *warm smile *

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    Dingdee said:
    31 July 2013

    Heard of Facebook ? :-)

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    Dingdee said:
    31 July 2013

    Sorry robs . :-) Silly but as u know , well, as I hv shared , I am a little ...... Hmm.... Guarded at times . I don't know .... I guess I forgot abt the rest , that's all . I forgot abt all your supporters , anyone , reading this silly-ishly-convenient thread . Don't know ..... Guess that's what this is all abt , silly me then . :-) Anyhoo , back to formalities I guess , I am sure u are extremely proud of your stats and it is great to see, no, to read that you are smiling again , uneven if for a little bit . Great that you can enjoy this time with your poppet before the time away which you blogged abt .

    Yup.

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    RobertRich said:
    01 August 2013

    I am dreading the time they go away Dingdee....I feel myself already getting into the mode of missing them and it's like I can't help it.....as soon as I know they are going away my heart sinks and my whole outlook sinks with it; I find it hard to enjoy each day knowing that it's just another day closer to the separation and it hurts so much......it really does. I know I have depression and PTSD to deal with but really, the comings and goings of my little one is what gets me the most.

    I have to attend Jury Service next week. I am not looking forward to that at all either. I've managed to get out of it before now but not this time.

    Anyways, don't worry about other people Dingdee....I haven't posted on the main page in a while and frankly I have been enjoying this thread since you and I began our messages. You don't have to be guarded with me.....nothing to fear here :) I have been enjoying this.....no need for it to stop :)

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    Dingdee said:
    01 August 2013

    :-)

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    Dingdee said:
    01 August 2013

    So sorry u feel this way robs . Text posting here again but thought to quickly respond before dashing into meeting . I'm not feeling guarded with you , not at all. Hope u feeling better soon .

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    RobertRich said:
    01 August 2013

    Thanks Dingdee....glad you aren't feeling guarded :)

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    RobertRich said:
    01 August 2013

    I am loving your new picture, by the way :) *warm hug*

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    Dingdee said:
    01 August 2013

    Was windy . :-) ( not a fashion statement )

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    Dingdee said:
    02 August 2013

    Robs , you ok ?

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    RobertRich said:
    02 August 2013

    Trying to be Dingdee....in the depths a bit tonight, with a somewhat murky outlook :(

    Hoping you are well, though.....

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    Dingdee said:
    03 August 2013

    I am :-) I keep coming here oddly , even though the privacy is gone , just to see how you are really . Robs Been thinking ... Is there any way that you could go with your partner ?

    That was a . ... B is: Hope u don'tind me saying but it sounds as if u and your partner struggle to talk feelings , which surprises me having read how you ate able to express these in blogs . So ... Dadaaaaaa !!!! Solution : Could you write her a letter sxplainjng what seems obvious to those more feelings-ish aware. - that now is not super duper enough of a reason to go anywhere and that if she chooses to go , that she needs to committ to helping you from there by skyping every 2 days or so. When my kids dad and I parted , they missed him so I would get them to do there drawings etc at dining room table while he was on Skype . Even dinners . Anything helps .

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    Dingdee said:
    03 August 2013

    I really wish I could do .... Something !! It's again such a horrible thing to be here unable to help . Please know that you ate so not alone , even if you feel that way sometimes , you really really aren't ....

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    RobertRich said:
    03 August 2013

    Thanks Dingdee....yes, I am not doing too well at present, so your words mean a great deal to me; I do feel so very alone, and I can't seem to shake the overwhelming depression that has gripped me the last few weeks. I am doing my best......just not enjoying being me at all at the moment....:(

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    RobertRich said:
    03 August 2013

    My partner and I are like ships in the night these days.....not a lot of intimacy or 'realness' happening. I know this is open publicly but I don't care too much......just enjoying these moments of communication with you. My heart's love is my little one and it's her warmth and energy that I am going to miss so dearly and be bereft of soon; there's no chance of me going with them and Skype is up to the whim of my partner really.......she just doesn't 'get' what this does to my heart......sad but true :(

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    Dingdee said:
    04 August 2013

    Is it worth a try ? Gosh , don't mean to keep on but sometimes we just know if it's always worked and now , suddenly isn't , we'll then Yes, it's worth a try , a nudge towards talking abt feelings

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    Dingdee said:
    04 August 2013

    If not , you are in charge of HOW this c r a p works out ... Not whether it happened as it did But the HOW is yours to sign . What are your options Robs ? Start there ...... Hug and a HUGE half !!!

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    Dingdee said:
    04 August 2013

    Another hug .

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    RobertRich said:
    04 August 2013

    Thankyou my dear Dingdee.....yes I have found myself thinking about options, and none of them seem within my grasp really......either I feel too low to consider it or I just don't see life working out in a cope-able way if that makes sense. I am simply in a huge hole at present and I just don't know what to do to make even small changes to these storms that keep lashing me and pinning me down. Last night I lay awake and for quite a while just cried....the tears really hurt; you know those really hot heavy ones that cut their way down your cheek, and for the first time in a while I literally felt hopeless. So, today the sun is shining but I am feeling battered and bruised......just how it goes for me at present.....

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    RobertRich said:
    04 August 2013

    *warm hug*

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    Dingdee said:
    04 August 2013

    RObs , I don't know what to say ..... To do ..... If this was not words , I'd probably make you a cup- cake , tuck your toes in under the fluffy blanket and hand you the remote to the wii control .... Ooo. And a box of them Lindt balls . LOLOLOL.... Sigh ..... I don't knowwww.... C r a p . I hv something to encourage but can't share here . Do u hv Facebook or an email which I send a story to ? I feel awkward asking but not sure what else to do really . If not , I am sure that you'll be okay without the story . :-)

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    RobertRich said:
    04 August 2013

    Dindee I am on: robertrichards94@gmail.com - it would be lovely to hear from you :) Thankyou for your words....I really feel young and sick at the moment and really want to be looked after (wrong I guess.....a grown adult and all that) but it's just how things roll.....can't escape this sunken place.....

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    Dingdee said:
    07 August 2013

    Hey, u okay ?

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    Dingdee said:
    07 August 2013

    I am concerned for you Robs. Unlike you not to respond and your last mails said how down you are ..... Please let me know you are okay .... ( warm hug )

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    RobertRich said:
    21 August 2013

    Yes I am OK Dingdee....hanging in there, no better or worse than that....