So after being very nervous about catching up with my friends, we had a few drinks at home and... I passed!
Every time my friends and husband would all go outside, I would stay inside and clean to keep my mind occupied. Phew!!! That was a really hard test, but I am so glad I overcame it. I know there will be more trials, but so far so good.
Smokefree days: 50
Total savings: $612
First day in level 2 and friends are wanting to catch up. I'm not sure if I am ready yet to see people. I talked to my cousin via video chat last night and watched him light up. It brought up memories and now I'm concerned that I might break.
Smokefree days: 40
Total savings: $490
I'm still here, I'm still smokefree and feeling fabulous. My spending account is looking amazing as well. So many positives to me quitting. I hope you are all keeping safe and well. Stay strong whanau and let's get through the struggles together. Kia kaha!
Smokefree days: 27
Total savings: $330
Wow, I am nearly at my one month mark and am feeling amazing. Suprisingly, staying in isolation is helping me alot. It allows me to keep away from my triggers and keep myself busy with the kids and lots of cleaning lol.
I hope you are all keeping safe and well.
Kia kaha koutou.
Had a horrible Friday, horrible Saturday tried to drown all of my emotions in alcohol and then cheated on Saturday night while intoxicated and had a puff. Too many small, inconsequential things that would normally not phase me, just bombarded me all in the space of a couple of days like a giant snowball. Greatest thing was, I absolutely hated that puff. It made me want to vomit and I haven't thought about a single smoke since.
It's still early days though, but great to see my bank account is actually quite healthy before pay day.
I've had a few moments where my willpower overcame the cravings and stuck to it's guns and kept the ciggies away. Have kept to my regular routines and have kept my half empty packets at home the whole time. Most times I've even forgotten that it is there, which is a good thing.
Am still listening to my hypnotherapy sessions in bed before I go to sleep. Sometimes I wake up early hours of the morning and it's still going. It seems to keep me grounded and I've noticed I do alot better with it than any of the gum/lozenges/patches/pills.
It's the latest update.
My health has turned a corner and I'm scared to see the doctor. It's been ongoing for about 4 years now, but the coughing is constant and the flem is now blocking my airways. I know that it is the smoking, but I'm scared to put a name to it. Both my preventative and blue inhaler don't help anymore.
So I have once again set my quit date for Monday and am currently listening to my hypnotherapy session.
Emotional triggers are my biggest downfall. It doesn't necessarily need to be mine. As a lot of people come to me to talk, I find myself carrying their baggage until they feel better.
January was a hard month for me, 2 weeks into quitting and my cousin confesses to her suicidal tendacies. I was on suicidal watch for a whole weekend as well as looking after her 2 toddlers. I caved straight away.
This is just one instance of my life and I just don't know how to overcome these times. I'm hoping that the blogs will help me too.
Well I had my last cigerette at 2:00am on 1st January and I remember looking at it and thinking 'I will beat this'.
This time around I am going cold turkey and have never felt better about myself. But have noticed I am eating like an absolute pig, compared to what I normally eat.
One step at a time.
Kia kaha whanau.
Woo hoo I've made it to day 22!
Have noticed that I am doing things that I would normally procrastinate. Am sleeping less hours in the night and have so much time and energy up my sleeves.
Nearly at that one month mark.