I woke up at 3 am sweating because I was dreaming about smoking and that I caved in (Thank god it was a dream) but it gave me such a scare I started crying thinking I had one and undone all my hard work.
I don't think it was silly of me to cry but it definitely scared the crap out of me.
Restricted test tomorrow and a tad nervous, I'm going to eat a small snack before I go and take a big bottle of water with me I just hope the testing person won't mind if I have to pull over to have a drink.
Whoop Whoop almost one month on Thursday.
Smokefree days: 85
Total savings: $631
Wow!! Haven't been on here for sometime as when your work 18hr days, eat, sleep, work is all you can manage lol. Thrilled at this stat, had a few moments in times of immense stress to go buy a pack, breathed and reminded myself what it was all for and the mood passed very quickly.
I'm at work for 3 hours today but I feel terrible so after work it going to be a nice steaming hot bath and then back to bed for me. I started the new program today and I think it was a bad idea starting when I'm sick.
Hopefully I'll be a bit better tomorrow as I have to drive to Te Puke and back to Rotorua to see my partners family if not then he will be going by himself.
Thanks for all the love Family it really does mean the world to me
I'm sick as a dog, been up all night being sick, being sick stresses me out and all I want to do is smoke (Good thing I am broke so I can't buy smokes).
Hoping the doctor can give me something for this and hopefully I can go home and sleep it off.
Still smoke free so I'm still awesome
Hello beautiful people, hope you are all feeling great and doing well.
I am wondering if anyone else has had trouble sleeping through the night?
I'm finding that sleeping through the night is a little tough at the moment :( I am unsure if it from withdrawals but I am struggling to stay asleep. I have found when I wake up during the night its because i have had a dream about smoking or feel like smoking.... I often put YouTube on with some classical music playing to help me drift back off.
I feel great that I haven't given into temptation but I also have lost a few important people in my life because I have made the choice to kick this bad habit in the butt so but I will regret nothing because I know its the best choice for me.
Sending love out to you all Whanau xxxx
For those who want to know, this is how the Quit Train got started way back on 20th Nov 2011.
We had so much fun, may ppl participated in this imaginary train ride to help us all stay on track with our quitting, I think it actually helped us all, anyway here goes...
Some folks ride the train of life
Looking out the rear,
Watching miles of life roll by,
And marking every year.
They sit in sad remembrance,
Of wasted days gone by,
And curse their life for what it was,
And hang their head and cry.
But I don't concern myself with that,
I took a different vent,
I look forward to what life holds,
And not what has been spent.
So strap me to the engine,
As securely as I can be,
I want to be out on the front,
To see what I can see.
I want to feel the winds of change,
Blowing in my face,
I want to see what life unfolds,
As I move from place to place.
I want to see what's coming up,
Not looking at the past,
Life's too short for yesterdays,
It moves along too fast.
So if the ride gets bumpy,
While you are looking back,
Go up front, and you may find,
Your life has jumped the track.
It's all right to remember,
That's part of history,
But up front's where it's happening,
There's so much mystery.
The enjoyment of living,
Is not where we have been,
It's looking ever forward,
To another year and ten.
It's searching all the byways,
Never should you refrain,
For if you want to live your life,
You gotta drive the train!
I have been Quit for 7 Years, 8 Months, 2 Weeks, 6 Days, 15 hours and 11 minutes, I have Not smoked 70,490 cigarettes & i haven't wasted $39,779.96 Which means i have also made better use of 8 Months, 2 Days, 18 hours and 10 minutes smoking time.
I've been smoke free for 18 days now - still early days in my opinion. One thing I have noticed is how much more free time I have now that I'm using my time more wisely! I usually wake up at 5.30 am to have my smoke and coffee, read the paper and make my son's school lunch etc. I'm finding that I get more things done in less time cos I'm not going outside to get my morning fix of nicotine. I'm even thinking about changing my alarm till 6 am! Hope all of you guys are having wonderful smoke free days as well!
Smokefree days: 35
Total savings: $260
Wow, been so busy at work haven't had the chance to get online, but 35 days, past the month, yeah baby!!!! This time of year on the farm is highly stressful but the triggers just aren't there anymore, I'm actually finding I'm dealing with the stress a lot easier without the smokes, feel calmer and more leveled headed. Feeling stronger, healthier and energized every day I am smoke free. 😊