Aug 31 2016
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Im Smoking

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If you were to be anywhere near me right now, you would see and smell smoke - but don't worry.....it's all coming out of my ears!!
Thanks to a certain family member, i have had people turn up on the doorstep after hearing i have a cancerous tumour - and they seem baffled to see i'm not quite on deaths door yet!! I'm soo furious at the family member who couldn't keep her trap shut! Now i think some of them think i'm telling porkies - so i've had to educate them that a cancer diagnosis doesn't necessarily mean a death sentence! I'm so angry about being put in that position.
Also hubby has a broken foot due to a work injury and for the last week has been pretty much helpless as they could only put a 1/2 cast on to allow for swelling so it's been important for him not to put any weight at all on it, to try and avoid surgery. - Hence it's been full on around here. Back to the hospital tomorrow and hopefully it can have a full cast. My word he's the worst patient ever....and there have been a few terse words between us! Love him to bits though - just need to increase the training for a while until he realizes i am always right! LOL.
Seriously - it has all been very stressful and there have been moments when i really thought about smoking - but that would just complicate things further - so i don't go there!
Anyways as you can see from my title....my spirit feels a little out of sorts at the moment....but i have my sense of humour in tact. Humour and my potty mouth will see me through. I may be a little bent....but not broken.

Hope you're all having a good day and doing what needs to be done to have a wonderful smokefree life.
Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong.
Stay Quitsafe,
Love & hugs to all.
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Aug 11 2016
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Update Stats and other

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Smokefree Days: 750
Cigarettes NOT Smoked: 15,000
Total Savings: $13,950.00

Firstly thanks heaps for your amazing support yesterday. I swear i saw the walls vibrating with all the support hums!

So it is a cancerous tumour in the bladder BUT it is a low grade one that we can deal to. Often associated with......smoking. When the specialist asked if i smoked - i was so happy to be able to tell him i'd quit. Thought i might get a bit of a lecture but no - we started sharing quit stories, as he's an ex-smoker too.
Oh and i got to see inside my own bladder! How many of you are as flexible as me?! lol. He said the tumour was very pretty....did i want to see it. Yeah i did! Just looks like a piece of coral. Actually i'm not that flexible.....saw it through the cystoscope! lol
Anyway at this stage i'm waiting for surgery (probably 2 - 3 months) and then a thorough testing of it will be done. All being well - just regular checks for the rest of my life. Apparently they do recur quite often.
All in all i consider myself very lucky and am so grateful to have kicked smoking to the kerb, and for the mindblowing support given to me to do it.
Every one of you guys can also do it Just be prepared to fight and use every tool available to you.

Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong.
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs xx

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Aug 6 2016
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Friday Blather

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Smokefree Days :745
Cigarettes NOT Smoked: 14,900
Total Savings: $13,857.00

Hope everyone's enjoying making it to another Smokefree Friday, and looking forward to the weekend. For our newbies....the first few weekends can feel pretty tough going. The routine of the week has gone and so it can feel pretty unsettled over the weekend. Don't be discouraged. It will get better. The strategies you've used through the week will still stand you in good stead for the weekend. I found i had to have plenty to keep me busy and distracted for the first few. If you're a drinker....maybe think about giving it a miss - or at least restricting it a bit until you feel strong in your quit.

In other nana news.....i have enjoyed filling my house with jasmine and daphne flowers before the weather destroys them, and the house smells soo beeeautiful! Not great for the sinuses.....but that's why they make antihistamines!

It's my birthday tomorrow and i'm looking forward to spending the day with family and having a celebratory meal.
For a long time i never thought i'd make it to this birthday.....because of smoking and losing both parents at a young age due to smoking. I was sure i'd be gone by now. I sure feel differently now......and mostly due to being able to quit the nicotine. Now i welcome and treasure every single day.

In medical news......thankfully i haven't had a long wait to hear from the specialist and am all set for a biopsy to be done first thing Tuesday morning. So pleased i don't have a long wait - but.....Eeeek!
Will be good to get it over and done with - and get my life back! And i'm looking forward to a positive outcome!

Finally a little Friday frivolity:
Guy tries to get into a night club but the bouncer won't let him in without a tie.
Guy goes back to his car....finds some jumper leads and wraps them around his neck like a tie.
Goes back to the club and tries again.
The bouncer rolls his eyes and says
"Okay....in you go, but don't try and start anything"!

Enjoy your weekend and remember:
We are all fabulous and strong,
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all.
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Jul 30 2016
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TGIF

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Hi everyone. I have to say i'm pleased to see the end of this week. It's been a pretty hectic one for me.
I have had some health concerns recently and this week has been a whirlwind of various tests. My doctor called me in the day after the ultrasound to tell me that i'm carrying around something extra in my bladder, and i'm now waiting for a specialist appointment. At first they thought it was stones....but it appears not.
As some of you know i've had to change my lifestyle somewhat due to pre-diabetes - and to be honest i've had real problems keeping to a healthy weight. The doctor has now prescribed a protein supplement (horrible!) as in her words she wants to "fatten me up a bit" in preparation for possible surgery.
For now we only know that it could possibly be cancer......but it could possibly be something else. We won't know until after seeing the specialist and further investigation. So starts the waiting!
I was shocked to start with, but i'm not really worried now. I know all the right steps are being taken and we just work through them one at a time.

Anyway just wanted to let you know should i disappear for a while, (probably long overdue anyway) and i apologize if this is all too much information about my bladder! LOL
Oooh and do you know what the silver lining is? Being able to say "Not for the last 2 years" when asked if i smoke.
That feels real good. And now that it's the weekend i know nobody will be poking, prodding, and asking me to pee on demand! lol

I hope you all have a great smokefree weekend and stay strong in your resolve to keep quit.

Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong,
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all xx
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Jul 21 2016
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Stats Update 2 YEARS SMOKEFREE

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Smokefree Days: 730
Cigarettes NOT Smoked: 14,600
Total Savings: $13,578.00

Oh my word. Miracles do happen - and sometimes they happen for me!
2 years ago my whole life revolved around smoking. Where i went, who i saw, and the things i did all depended on whether or not i could smoke. If i couldn't - or it would be too long between smokes.....i just didn't. Even just writing this makes me a little weepy. The fact that my addiction to nicotine stunted my life in so many ways. But that was then - this is now.
I am still a nicotine addict. Always will be - but now every day i am an addict choosing not to use.
My life now is totally different to my life as a smoker. I feel every day like a huge weight i'd been carrying around on my shoulders for 45 years has been lifted. I make the most of every opportunity that comes my way, i believe in myself more than i ever have, and the freedom and joy i feel being totally present in life is unbelievable.
Quitting was really tough for a long time. Sometimes i wanted to quit quitting - but those were the times i'd come here and let it all out. The wonderful people here would believe and encourage when i was all out of belief - and courage. I'll always be grateful for that support.
I urge any newbies to use this site often. It really can make a huge difference. And you too have something to offer others.
Very occasionally i still think a smoke would be good.Not a craving - just a thought - but i enjoy smokefreedom way too much to act on it. My life mantra now is "i'm an addict, but i'm choosing not to use".

Newbies.....i do know how rough it can be, but i urge you strongly to just keep fighting. Sometimes you may think you can't fight any more. That's not true. That is the addiction trying to weaken your resolve.
You CAN do this - and i promise you will be so amazed at the rewards you reap. I am so very proud of every single one of us on this journey.
You too will love being smokefree. It is absolutely worth fighting for!

Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong,
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all xx
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Jul 9 2016
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Happy Birthday Hollie

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Sorry if i've jumped the gun on you Hollie, but i see you haven't blogged.....so i'm doing it for you!
Have a very Happy Birthday Hollie - another smokefree one too!
Have an awesome day and enjoy a drop or 6 of your favourite tipple.
Lots of love xx
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Jul 8 2016
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Never a Truer Word

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Thought i would share something i spotted on my walk today.
We have a skate park close to where i live, and it's really well used by heaps of people including lots of littlies. As i got closer i noticed that someone had painted on it and i felt quite miffed that someone would do that - and i hoped it wasn't a whole lot of swear words.
When i got closer i saw it said......
If you fall - always get back up!
I couldn't help but smile thinking of all of us on this journey......and all the littlies using the ramp who might find encouragement in those words.

Hope everybody is hanging in there come what may and sticking it to the nicodemon.
Very nearly at the weekend now. , so enjoy the rest of your day and be proud of this journey we're all on.
Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong,
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all.
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Jun 22 2016
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Stats Update 700 Days Smokefree

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Smokefree Days: 700
Cigarettes NOT Smoked: 14,000
Total Savings: $13,020.00

This is me. I have been smokefree now for 700 days, and i am absolutely loving it! Every day!!
When i started on day 1 i had absolutely no idea how i was going to do it. All i knew was that i had to - and that meant not ever putting a filthy fag in my mouth and lighting it. I was so scared, but tried to bluff my way through. Faking it until i made it. I had never blogged before but decided to go all in. I had nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Before i joined up here i had smoked 45 years, a pack a day, and had so many quit attempts behind me. I had always kept 'just a few' cigarettes as back up.....you know....just in case it all got too hard. Always it did.
This time i got rid of all smoking paraphenalia and put my trust in the awesome people on this site. They were my back-up......and not once did they leave me hanging. Quitline and my fellow bloggers made such a huge difference to me.
If you are a new quitter.....you will have days when you too think it's just too hard. You may think you can't do it anymore. You can. Those are the times you jump on here and let it out. Someone will always help you out. This is a supportive and encouraging family - but it doesn't mean you always have to put on a brave face when you're struggling. We need to keep it very real. Some will find it easier than others. That doesn't mean you're not doing well. Each of our journey's will be similar in some ways....and very different in other ways.
As long as you remain committed to becoming smokefree - you will get there.
I will always be indebted to Quitline, and the amazing people on this site for helping me to be in the position of posting this 700 days today.
Smokefreedom is just brilliant!
Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong,
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all.
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Jun 10 2016
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Hi di hi

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Hi guys. I haven't been here lately coz i've been away in the land of misery!
All due to an abcessed tooth!
Went to bed the night of World Smokefree Day good as gold - and woke in the wee small hours with a terrible toothache ( well a whole face ache to be honest) and my face the size of a very large pumpkin. Managed to get an emergency appointment at a dentist (not my own) to get the tooth out but he couldn't because the damn thing wouldn't go numb due to the infection.....and man he did try hard to numb it! All he could do was load me up with antibiotics and wait for it to settle. Meantime the infection got into my system good and proper and the whole body went toxic!
Finally today i feel more like myself, although the tooth is still really sore. I have an appointment with my dentist for Tuesday....and i'm hoping it will numb up this time. I want that sucker gone!! - so freaking out a bit about that.
Other than that - everything is great.
I have had a quick scroll through the blogs and see some fantastic milestones being reached. Congratulations to you all.
Also great to see so many newbies joining the Quit Family. Everyone of you CAN be smokefree. Dig in and be determined to do whatever it takes to get through those first days and weeks, and know that you won't be alone on your smokefree journey.

Remember:
We are all fabulous and strong
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all.
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May 31 2016
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Stats UpdateCount me in 679 Days Smokefree

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Smokefree Days: 679
Cigarettes NOT Smoked: 13,580
Total Savings: $12,629.40

Treats for everyone today for being SMOKEFREE on World Smokefree Day.
We are all fabulous and strong.
Stay Quitsafe.
Love & hugs to all.
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