Smokefree days: 50 days
Grams NOT smoked: 572
Total savings: $732.00

PHEW, there is just the one baby, 1cm long, in the right place, with a beating heart! But they took a week off me, I am only 6 weeks and 6 days. Ugh, that means I've just gained an extra week of feeling sick, boohoo. Now to look after my wee blueberry (that's about how big he/she is) to make sure everything stays well.

AND my new bed arrived today, hooray!

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    Helen101 said:
    26 July 2013

    Great news. Congrads. Now you can focus on your little one. here's hoping the sickness will disappear. At least your already free of smokes. Would be even harder if you were pregnant, sick and giving the fags the flick all at the same time - especially rembering how those first few days are.

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    Mitchee said:
    26 July 2013

    NNNnnnnnaaaaawwww a real beating heart.....makes everything sooooo real Heiro♥

    A weee lil Heiro...nnnaawww. Hope the sickness dies down

    so you can enjoy being pregnant, because it definitely is a beautiful experience.

    Congrats all around for you sugar....woohoo @ the new bed, scan (x1 bubba only) and those beauty stats!!☺☺

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    Pop's said:
    26 July 2013

    This is really good news. So pleased.



    50 days Smokefree. 48 days enceinte. Perfect timing

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    Julz1981 said:
    26 July 2013

    Love love love.

    It must be amazing (minus the morning sickness) to feel a baby growing inside you. So small haha. This baby is a gift and I believe he/she has come at the right time.

    50 days is amazing. There is nothing like a new bed.

    xx

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    Maggs49 said:
    26 July 2013

    Congratulations all round , exiting news about baby, and 50 days, just one day behind you , yea

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    Worker said:
    26 July 2013

    Yahoo a baby - so cool. Im too old for babies now - I just love my grandbabies now. But wed all love to be honorary aunties and uncles to this one lol. Oh yip a new bed - luxury. I remember when we got ours - sigh.

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    Yorkshire Lass said:
    26 July 2013

    Phew!!!!.....Awesome news for you Heiro...And the new bed.........Aaaahh....ENJOY!!!!!

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    Kathry said:
    26 July 2013

    Wonderful to see you little blueberry for the first time. Great stats and happy family times. All the best.

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    clematis said:
    26 July 2013

    Aw, that lil darlin in there, brings back memories of when I was pregnant, special as, no other feeling like it. Agree about the bed, it will make a huge difference to be as comfortable as you can when you're resting and sleeping. Luv, auntie clem, feeling all clucky. x

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    PandoraNZ said:
    26 July 2013

    You are doing so much already to make sure everything stays well, congratulations and make sure to remember to look after yourself.

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    Thunderbirds are go said:
    26 July 2013

    Oh, wow. You can see a heart beat when she/he is only 1cm. How touching. Years ago when I had a scan, you couldn't even tell if it was a boy or girl until he was born. I know you'll treasure your blueberry. I suppose nothing worth having comes easy. (like quitting)

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    Susie said:
    26 July 2013

    Congrats on reaching half a hundy and also on your pregnancy with just one!! My girl got the fright of her life at her 6 wk scan we they saw 2 babies. Here's hoping your sickness clears soon so you can enjoy watching your blueberry grow inside you!

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    DragonLips said:
    26 July 2013

    Awww the wee blueberry! Yay Heiro. I'm so happy for you. I too hope the sickness goes away for you so that you can enjoy this special time. I really know how awful that feels. I was one of the unlucky ones there. Great that you have a new bed to enjoy though. I got mine last year and its bliss :) congrats on your half century too buddy. Good news all round today eh? (((hugs for you and blueberry)). Xx

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    Madhatter said:
    26 July 2013

    Enjoy your new bed,yeh nice to get new things, and congrats on baby how exciting. Keep up the good work with staying smk free. Sleep well you two.

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    stevo mc said:
    26 July 2013

    Thats great news Heiro. A single blueberry is easier to look after then a blueberry pie :)

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    Madhatter said:
    26 July 2013

    He hehe that's so funny stevo

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    jellykelly said:
    27 July 2013

    Love it :)

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    MollyMuppet said:
    27 July 2013

    how lovely and exciting, blueberry how cute...♥ Hope the sickness dissapears quickly for you so you can enjoy these moments ☼ big hug, your gonna be just fine ♥

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    Saffron said:
    27 July 2013

    Heiro, I'm so pleased for you about just the one! Phew!

    Now all we need to do is get rid of that sickness.

    Sorry you've had a week taken away - how dare they?!!!!!!!

    Enjoy your new bed.

    Congratulations on 50 days! (Actually, 51 now as I type this.)

    Take care please ♥♥♥

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    Buddy said:
    27 July 2013

    Awesome news Heiro, Funny Stevo LOL, Hope the morning sickness passes quickly, Keep smiling :)

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    muzzie said:
    28 July 2013

    Sending my love to you Heiro and your little one.

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    PandoraNZ said:
    29 July 2013

    I chewed charcoal (bought from the chemist, not for the BBQ), but can't remember if that was for morning sickness or indigestion. Here's hoping you are feeling much better.

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    Saffron said:
    31 July 2013

    You're very lovely heiro ♥ Thank you for caring ♥

    I'm the same. Annoyed with myself actually.

    I thought of blogging but how I feel isn't really quit related.

    Thinking of you and hoping you're managing?

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    heironymus said:
    31 July 2013

    Saffron, lots of blogs have been posted that aren't quit related, I think you should post anyway, a problem shared is a problem halved! Include your stats to put a smokefree spin on it ☺

    Have you spoken to your GP? Perhaps this is a good idea, especially as you're still not feeling any better. Why on earth are you annoyed with yourself? It sounds as though you are being a bit hard on yourself. Treat yourself with the same love and care you show to me, please! Do you have someone that you can talk to?

    I am okay, still battling the nausea but the pills have stopped the constant vomiting and I have started to regain the 5kg I lost. Off to the counsellor tonight but feeling very hopeless about it all. Don't know what to do so am just going to be honest and say that I don't feel as though I am getting anywhere. I have been a nasty raging nutjob :(

    Sending you my love as always, and lots of hugs (((((Saffron)))) ♥♥♥

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    PYTnz said:
    31 July 2013

    hey my frend :) Im happy for those 50 smokefree days of yours coz they are great just like you. xxx Are you painting those pretty nails yet??

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    Saffron said:
    31 July 2013

    From one nasty raging nutjob to another, pleeeease be gentle and kind to yourself!!

    I will blog, but in a day or two. Have a lot on at the moment and replying to blogs is ridiculously slow with my computer acting up and the dial-up go-slow!

    Being honest with your counsellor is the very wisest thing to do.

    I'm glad the constant vomiting has stopped. I hope the nausea vanishes as well very quickly. My nausea begone vibes will surely work soon!!

    Haven't seen GP yet - he truly is un-sympathetic and difficult to talk to.

    I do have a friend I'm talking to though. Thank you for your concern and your new image thingumyjig (can't remember the proper term for it!!)

    I'm doing okay. Always hard on myself, as you spotted! Apologies for not practicing what I preach. I will try to do better, LOL.

    I'm away from home most of tomorrow so may not get back here until Friday.

    Love & hugs to you (((((heiro))))) ♥♥♥

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    rainbowfish said:
    01 August 2013

    Great news on the singular blueberry Heiro, even though either way it would have been okay. Hoping things are settling down, if not, hang in their chickie, it'll be worth it. Hope your new bed is comfy. Missing you on the blogs:) xx

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    Crusader1 said:
    02 August 2013

    Great news Heiro you must be over the moon (or possibly over the loo with the morning sickness but that will pass)

    There is only 1 better reason to be smoke free for your self and thats to be smoke free for your family. The time will fly and in no time you and hubby will have a new family addition to dote on.

    All the best for the months ahead.

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    Saffron said:
    04 August 2013

    Just added a comment to an old blog by mistake so I'm repeating it here, making me sound like a stalker! - sending you love heiro. Feeling a little concerned that you haven't been around for a while. Hope you're not in hospital x♥x

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    rainbowfish said:
    06 August 2013

    Heiro, my gorgeous soul quit twin, I saw the comment you left on another gorgeous lady's blog. Don't be so hard on yourself sweetheart. I understand the emotions you are feeling, I get it all. You have helped me more than you probably realise throughout my journey, and I have been missing you lots. Please take care of yourself emotionally, only kind thoughts allowed, and know that I support you all the way. There are no right or wrongs in this whole shebang, and doing what is best for you, IS the right way. Take care lovely:)

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    Saffron said:
    07 August 2013

    I'm at work and have barely time to type but wanted you know I've read your comment and I'm not at all surprised. Nor disappointed. Nor anything negative - I only feel compassion for you heiro. I will write more later (or it might be tomorrow, sorry) but please treat yourself the way you would me should our situations be reversed. No self-hating is allowed!! None. Not even a smidgeon. Snuggle up in that cloak x♥x Thank you for writing. It must have been so difficult ((((((heiro))))))

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    Saffron said:
    07 August 2013

    I'm back again - had something cancelled this afternoon, which was good news :)

    Thank you for your concern about me heiro and what you say about finding another GP is excellent advice. I've made one phone call already! I'm feeling less edgy now that the aftershocks have lessened.

    I hope your own visit to the doctor is helpful and yes please - do keep in touch. I'd really like that. I've set up an email address if you'd like to write to me there - it's saffron@outlook.co.nz - but if you'd rather not, I understand. No pressure.

    I mainly want you to be non-judgemental with yourself. Unconditional love is really the only way to be - anything else is so unhelpful ♥

    You absolutely DO deserve kindness, sympathy and love.

    I think if you could bring yourself to blog, everyone would support you - you're so well thought of here, smoking or not!

    Confession: I stopped smoking for the first month of both my pregnancies but only because I couldn't stand the smell. Then I started again and smoked all the rest of the time. Both times.

    ♥xx♥

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    Julz1981 said:
    07 August 2013

    Was wondering how you were doing...

    how did counselling go? The above comments made me feel warm to know there is so much compassion here. Although we are strangers, I believe people's spirits shine through, so many people care about you Heiro.

    xx

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    DragonLips said:
    08 August 2013

    Hi Heiro, Hoping you are feeling a little better. Miss your blogs too. Take care xx

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    Saffron said:
    09 August 2013

    ((((((♥heiro♥))))))

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    Maanu said:
    11 August 2013

    Huge congratulations on 66 days smoke-free and the cute little blueberry. How wonderful !!! Take care of yourself and the blueberry. Now you have even more reasons to stay quit

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    Saffron said:
    14 August 2013

    xx♥ Missing you heiro. Thinking of you. Sending love ♥xx

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    rainbowfish said:
    14 August 2013

    Sending you three little hearts to remind you of three things.....

    ♥ I'm here

    ♥ I care

    ♥ I miss you

    Hope you are okay my lovely cyber-friend - thinking of you Heiro.

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    Saffron said:
    19 August 2013

    What's up, heiro?

    xx♥xx

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    jellykelly said:
    20 August 2013

    how are you? everything ok?

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    Saffron said:
    22 August 2013

    I know I'm being a pest, but I need to post again and tell you I'm thinking of you heiro.

    Quite worried. Sending love ♥♥♥

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    heironymus said:
    22 August 2013

    Saffron how on earth could I ever view you as being a pest? You are very kind to me and I am so grateful for each and every comment that you leave me. I have been meaning to make use of that address you gave me too, I thought to do it today in fact. I was going to write this comment in an email but for some reason it seems easier offload here, which is odd really, when you think that anyone could see it.

    To be honest, I have been thinking about blogging but whatever I write sounds so pathetic… full of excuses, guilt and self-loathing. It’s not pretty. Then I read a blog today mentioning a pregnant girl smoking, the stupidity of it, putting her own needs first, the sacrifices that have to be made for baby’s sake. Straight back into my hole I crawled. How can I blog? I can only hope that if I did, the people who might judge me would refrain from making comment. I have been thinking that maybe I should say goodbye to heironymus and hello to Mrs Bosch (lol), just someone new, unburdened of this ignoble history of repeated falls. And talk about stupidity magnified, I don’t want to quit but I DO? I’m sick of doing nothing, feeling stuck. Why can’t I get myself unstuck? Why can’t I just do what I know should be done? Bah humbug!

    I’m sorry for not having replied to you sooner. I’ve kinda been avoiding the place. But here’s to talking soon, whether it be via a new blogging me, silly old heiro or the new-fashioned form of letter writing ☺.

    ♥ H

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    Saffron said:
    22 August 2013

    I'm so relieved to hear from you, heiro - thank you for answering.

    I wish very much that you could be non-judgemental towards yourself.



    You're the first person I thought of when I read that blog about a pregnant girl smoking. As you'll have seen in my reply, I smoked like a chimney myself and continued to smoke EVEN WHILE BREAST FEEDING, but I couldn't put that in my comment for everyone to read (!!) Both my children now smoke, so I should be full of guilt and self-loathing, but those are toxic and no good for anyone.



    I wish you would blog.

    Under any name at all, lol.

    I think you'd have lots of support from people here.



    Until I was diagnosed with Emphysema (and now I doubt if that was actually true!), I never, ever wanted to stop smoking. I would still smoke now if I knew my lungs would be okay.



    Being stuck is just being stuck. Don't judge it. Just be it. Whatever it is, it is.



    An email from you would be lovely, but it's okay if you'd rather not.

    I hope your pregnancy is progressing nicely and that nasty sickness has eased.

    Hope your two babies are okay.

    Hope Maggie is giving you some love.

    Hope hubby is kind.

    Mostly, I hope you can just be kind to yourself.

    Treat yourself as you would another who was in your exact situation. Please?

    ♥♥♥ Healing love ♥♥♥

    Because really, love is all there is. All else is a waste of time.



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    Saffron said:
    22 August 2013

    P.S. Your profile pic quote is spot on :))

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    rainbowfish said:
    22 August 2013

    Heiro, I love your profile pic too, it's all about self-acceptance.....it's a good place to be. I have replied to your comment. You have such wonderful qualities, and I know you will find a way to become 'unstuck'.

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    Julz1981 said:
    26 August 2013

    Hi Heiro

    I want to swear and say eff it. I don't think anyone is in a position to judge, certanly not me (alcoholic) you would know the kind of things I have done though your mum (I think she was an alcoholic?); I think you are judging yourself. Shame keeps us stuck, to get rid of shame we expose it, it becomes less and less (rather than feeling shame and hiding and not being honest) - what a gift it is to be honest (like you have above). I can relate to you in many ways (especially with my drinking - took bloody 8 years to 'get it'). Love to you beautiful lady xx

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    Saffron said:
    26 August 2013

    ((((Julz)))) I have great admiration for you and your generous honesty ♥

    Still sending loving thoughts and vibes your way, hiero ♥☺♥ Missing you. Lots.